It had been more than one year since i last blog. A lot had happened, most significantly is that i started work already n now i almost finish my houseman... WOo!
As for y i stopped that typical reason is that i m too busy, swamp by work... bla.. bla... bla... But mainly is because i lose my mojo, i lose what inspire me to write, what push me to sign in n type...
Until now i still not 100% recovered yet, so my writing may still sucks... Hahaha...
Learned a lot since start working, both work related and non work related. Mostly non work related. My thinking had been expose to new environment, people, and things. SHOCK! at first but numb-ing as it progress.
Now currently waiting for my next posting place!!! I Wan go BAC!!!
Pls dear mighty god let me go bac!!! PLSSSSS.....
Thursday, September 03, 2009
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Narnia
Yes, i m bac to blogging world after so long, many things had happened, namely: interview and convocation. Yea, i finally graduated as a pharmacist!
O, bac to narnia, i went to watch narnia: prince caspian today at times square with wk and zy. Those that hope that i will talk about what the movie is about will be disappointed as i m not going to do that. U can check the storyline in other blogs or newspaper/magazine. What i want to talk about is my experience while watching narnia.
What happen was during the movie, they are 3 malays sitting beside wk. They look like same age as us around 20-22. N throughout the movie, they look very excited n very into the movie, they scream when something surprise happened, they cheer for the kings n queens of narnia (pls go see the movie to see who they are) and they even clap hands when Aslan come to the rescue and peter save the day. What my point is: I ENVY them! As much as i try to keep myself young(believe me, i did try, even with all those grey hairs), i m mentally old. I do not believe in santa claus, i know aslan is computerise effect, i know narnia doesn't exist, maybe i also dun believe that good will thrump evil anymore. Fairy tales and their value behind them will always be stories only.
But for them, yes, they may have the same thinking as me but i know there is a small part in them that fairy tales exist. That's why they are so into the movie. I feel older after the movie.
Current mood: feeling bad over someone
O, bac to narnia, i went to watch narnia: prince caspian today at times square with wk and zy. Those that hope that i will talk about what the movie is about will be disappointed as i m not going to do that. U can check the storyline in other blogs or newspaper/magazine. What i want to talk about is my experience while watching narnia.
What happen was during the movie, they are 3 malays sitting beside wk. They look like same age as us around 20-22. N throughout the movie, they look very excited n very into the movie, they scream when something surprise happened, they cheer for the kings n queens of narnia (pls go see the movie to see who they are) and they even clap hands when Aslan come to the rescue and peter save the day. What my point is: I ENVY them! As much as i try to keep myself young(believe me, i did try, even with all those grey hairs), i m mentally old. I do not believe in santa claus, i know aslan is computerise effect, i know narnia doesn't exist, maybe i also dun believe that good will thrump evil anymore. Fairy tales and their value behind them will always be stories only.
But for them, yes, they may have the same thinking as me but i know there is a small part in them that fairy tales exist. That's why they are so into the movie. I feel older after the movie.
Current mood: feeling bad over someone
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Is it really finished? Pinched me pls...
I finish my last exam as a undergraduate yesterday (hopefully is the last one, I will say a big NO-NO to resit, o mighty god let me pass...). It's a OSCE and is like there will be simulated patient there with different request for us to tackle, or in an easier way is an oral or practical exam.
As i suck in communication, that is my biggest nightmare since i know that will be one of the component in the exam. I screwed up big time for the last two trial. For somehow when i step into the room i will freeze n my brain will blank: deleting every bits and pieces of information inside it. Yesterday is no exception. I knew i did badly, hopefully i can just squeeze through the passing mark (The big 50 gate) for me to graduate.
Anyway, at the end of this mile stone, i somehow think bac whether i hav changed during these 4 years. I have to admit, these four years have been four long, hard years for me, the studying is jus horrific, it still sent shiver right from head to toe when thinking bac. Those study break have been terrible. During sem 4 when v have 8 module, that was the period i spend less time sleeping. Then sem 6 i suffer from insomnia. During that period i felt intermittant and countless times of uncertainty, no confident and sometime even feel like breaking down n give up. I m amaze that i still in one piece n hold out until now.
As development as a person, i think i didn't change much during this period. Just as time go on i learned more and knew more n made minor adjustment to my thinking althought most of my IMU friend think my thinking is weird and should not be encourage and practiced. One major setback did happened on sem7. Althought that was my toughest part through my uni life but what can't kill u make u stronger (Thanx god i didn't kill myself, though depressed), i now can considered half cure but the memory will haunt me for years to come.
But aside from sad incidents, i did hav happy memory in IMU. I met some nice friends who teach me, share n go through everything with me during my uni life. Our outing will never lack laughter. Even though sometime argument did happens but v always manage to solve it and stick together. Will write a post about IMU friends on a separate post. I met a lot of interesting people in IMU n somehow have a lot of sons and daughters dunno pop out from where.
In summary, i did suffer in IMU but also did enjoy my uni life. I will definitely miss all these when i m working...
So, PLS let ALL OF US PASS so that v can work and can miss uni life, PLS, i m begging... PLS GOD... ...
As i suck in communication, that is my biggest nightmare since i know that will be one of the component in the exam. I screwed up big time for the last two trial. For somehow when i step into the room i will freeze n my brain will blank: deleting every bits and pieces of information inside it. Yesterday is no exception. I knew i did badly, hopefully i can just squeeze through the passing mark (The big 50 gate) for me to graduate.
Anyway, at the end of this mile stone, i somehow think bac whether i hav changed during these 4 years. I have to admit, these four years have been four long, hard years for me, the studying is jus horrific, it still sent shiver right from head to toe when thinking bac. Those study break have been terrible. During sem 4 when v have 8 module, that was the period i spend less time sleeping. Then sem 6 i suffer from insomnia. During that period i felt intermittant and countless times of uncertainty, no confident and sometime even feel like breaking down n give up. I m amaze that i still in one piece n hold out until now.
As development as a person, i think i didn't change much during this period. Just as time go on i learned more and knew more n made minor adjustment to my thinking althought most of my IMU friend think my thinking is weird and should not be encourage and practiced. One major setback did happened on sem7. Althought that was my toughest part through my uni life but what can't kill u make u stronger (Thanx god i didn't kill myself, though depressed), i now can considered half cure but the memory will haunt me for years to come.
But aside from sad incidents, i did hav happy memory in IMU. I met some nice friends who teach me, share n go through everything with me during my uni life. Our outing will never lack laughter. Even though sometime argument did happens but v always manage to solve it and stick together. Will write a post about IMU friends on a separate post. I met a lot of interesting people in IMU n somehow have a lot of sons and daughters dunno pop out from where.
In summary, i did suffer in IMU but also did enjoy my uni life. I will definitely miss all these when i m working...
So, PLS let ALL OF US PASS so that v can work and can miss uni life, PLS, i m begging... PLS GOD... ...
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Devil's deal...
How far will u go to achieve something? R u willing to sell your soul to the devil if can be exchange with anything that u desire?
I do concede that i m not perfect. I sometime do things that i m not proud of to achieve my aim. But i will only go as far as my conscious allow me to go. Nowadays i saw people stepping closer and closer to the devil path just to achieve something and their reason is:
"What's wrong with it, i wan to achieve what i set, if i dun do it; he, he, she or he will also do the same thing, then i wil be lagging already. What's wrong with the devil path, it's only a perspective of how u see things only. I m seeing it as angle's path, U R THE DEVIL!!!"
How far should i go? Confused...
I do concede that i m not perfect. I sometime do things that i m not proud of to achieve my aim. But i will only go as far as my conscious allow me to go. Nowadays i saw people stepping closer and closer to the devil path just to achieve something and their reason is:
"What's wrong with it, i wan to achieve what i set, if i dun do it; he, he, she or he will also do the same thing, then i wil be lagging already. What's wrong with the devil path, it's only a perspective of how u see things only. I m seeing it as angle's path, U R THE DEVIL!!!"
How far should i go? Confused...
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Still alive...
This was suppose to be a post on last Wednesday. Last 2 week has been hell. Below are the list of work that have to be done on the past two weeks:
- Industry attachment with full report
- 10 short care plan
- 1 long case
- study and sit for exam for evaluating pharmacology
- Integrated seminar
- Writing exercise for evaluating pharmacy
All those work have to be finish in a 9 days window. It all ends today with integrated seminar presentation on asthma. I have literately abandon my life for all those works. And it's not like in exchange of no life i get good work rate. All i can say is work did in desperate time won't be as good as work done in long, relax period like some other lucky ones have the privilege of. U may ask: "Who u wan to blame for then? Since u are so not satisfy." I only can blame my luck. What i have learn in this attachment period is to be perseverance, in whatever that were thrown at u(me). YES, at times i feel bleak, i feel is like the end of the world, i feel that i m hopeless. But i know if i hang in there long enough eventually i will go through it. N luckily at last i did even is in a not the perfect way that i wan. Hopefully all will go well in the final few weeks of my uni life and i can graduate soon. I believe that i can. YES, I CAN.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
White lies...
Do u all believe in white lie? Or u all are like me-- a white lie will still be a lie, no matter how beautiful it is.
Today someone lie about something to me. I feel that i m so stupid as the lier thought he/she can lie sucessfully even without covering properly. As if i m so naive and easy to lie to. It's either:
a) He/ she is a bad lier
or
b) Aiya, Lg only ma, no need waste effort to make the lie look good. Waste time!
Ouch, that damn hurting.
To the no good lier, try harder next time, K?
Happy Valentine Everyone!
Today someone lie about something to me. I feel that i m so stupid as the lier thought he/she can lie sucessfully even without covering properly. As if i m so naive and easy to lie to. It's either:
a) He/ she is a bad lier
or
b) Aiya, Lg only ma, no need waste effort to make the lie look good. Waste time!
Ouch, that damn hurting.
To the no good lier, try harder next time, K?
Happy Valentine Everyone!
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Clock ticking...
My fren once said: "Do u know that the time will still move evn if u do nothing?"
After some serious thinking, i come to a conclusion that: yea, time still move even if v do nothing. From that i somehow realise that everything will past, by one way or another. Sometime i feel that i would just really do nothing and let time flew past me but that is not an option now. I feel so tired and pressured everyday that i might for once "exploded".
But i will still try to hang in there, even if only a thread of line is holding me from become insane. Jus hope that time past faster and i will be still there...
After some serious thinking, i come to a conclusion that: yea, time still move even if v do nothing. From that i somehow realise that everything will past, by one way or another. Sometime i feel that i would just really do nothing and let time flew past me but that is not an option now. I feel so tired and pressured everyday that i might for once "exploded".
But i will still try to hang in there, even if only a thread of line is holding me from become insane. Jus hope that time past faster and i will be still there...
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